Love Yourself in 10 steps
Relax and seek for tranquility. Regardless of what happens, do not be anxious. If things are not progressing as fast as you want, relax. Repeat the process and chill. Experience more and be stronger. Moreover, there is no need to tell others about yourself or your progress, when not necessary. People need not to know everything or a significant part of your life because in the first place, your primary responsibility is towards yourself, not others.
Personally, the first three steps took several months. I was going back and forth. I was ambivalent, and at the same time I was losing self-confidence. I was feeling bad to be myself and was never really making any progress. I was regretting my decisions, and I was going astray. I was feeling lost, and I accepted people manipulating me. That was the worse feeling. I was waiting a major turnaround and wake-up call to focus on myself. In addition, I was anxious and living one day at a time.
My sister once told me that I should be in good company with myself. I understood what that mean, but I really do not know how. My situation went worse. I isolated and abused myself to the worst possible way. I was literally in the dark. I was surrounded by two sets of people: those who I could possibly trust, and those who I can not trust. There were two versions of myself: the weak façade and dark side. There were people who saw both versions, but most never appreciated that there were seeing a side of myself, that no one ever saw, even my close friends and family.
Well, that is life. However, I moved on and became braver. Now, I feel better. I can say I done with bullshit. I realized that if people could not accept my past and mistakes, and would play around me, then there is no reason to take a chance. I realized there is only one option: to love myself. I am doing that now, and I vow to continue with that in the future.